~ what a mess~
~ a self confess shoe fetish~
Was it a curse or my wish has been answered?
I am so frustrated to pack again. I have been moving a lot since for the past few years . Somehow I feel it was a curse or was it because when I was young I wish to become traveler that god has grant me my wish.
Today was even worst, I broke one of my beautiful necklace while packing . I only wore it once coz’ my dear just got it for me last month . Blame it on my butter fingers.
I notice that most of the stuff I have to pack is my shoes, clothes and books. I dont have much stuff except lots of shoes and clothes. Lots of games too for PS2 that I hardly play, might bring it back to Malaysia to entertain myself when I m bored.
When everything has plan out for my return by November , things get out of the way. I just remember I still have one exam by American Technologist where by I haven’t get the exact date of exam yet. This is going bad as my instructor told me it might take 6-12 weeks to have the exam date. Worst of all xmas is around the corner so my exam date would probably be in next year. I do not think I could wait till next year as I have plan to sort out things out and get everything ready by the end of the yr. However this exam would not affect my graduation so I might consider to skip it and return plus I have to take the another exam back home by Malaysia health dept too. Sometimes I wonder why I have to put myself in all this trouble, I wish I could just b normal and be competent of what I have instead of seeking more and more challenge. Lol . At the same time , I love being challenge and I m always eager to know how far and how much I know. This curiosity mind is like a curse and gift. I have a feeling it will kills me someday. My curiosity mind made me a good student, a good leader but it made me a very relentless person . I have to consistent to challenge myself and there fore I couldn’t live peacefully like other plp.
