Abt a little island in Malaysia October 7, 2008

 ~the magnificient view of Penang, Malaysia.

 

As usual , i drop by Barnes n Nobles to get some books to read. Then I stumble upon this mag call Islands n guess what it feature one of the island in my country. I have never been so proud ever as one of the island in my country was feature in a US travel magazine here. Penang indeed is one of my fav place to live in malaysia. It is a beautiful island surrounded by clear water beach and lots of historical monument. I used to go there once a month for job purpose. While working in the daytime , I chill out by the beach in the evening. Geez, i guess when i was there i did not see the true beauty of penang and now looking at the pics of the island it touch my heart . I can’t wait to show the mag to my american friends.

More info at www.islands.com/penang

Foreign land + new culture = .. October 3, 2008

 

 

I personally wants to share my personal experience with friends who is living in foreign place right now esp to Jerame who is in Japan.

Jerame is a American and obviously he gonna face difficulties to adapt to Asian culture especially japan with so much do and dont’s. As for me as an Asian I have so much do and dont’s that I find it difficult to adapt to the open policy in America. When I first came to the states, plp thought I was dumb coz’ I dont talk much. I dont talk about family or relationship or bedroom affair but the American likes to talk abt it wether at work or at school or at social place. They have this open policy to talk abt everything. This amazed me at the same time made me feel uneasy esp to know the private life’s of other plp. Even the strangers always talk to me where by in my country my mum used to taught me not to talk to strangers. People r bold and honest , they say what they think. Sometimes I get flatter when I was compliment by strangers but at the same time I felt uneasy as I dont talk to strangers a lot. As time goes by, I began to like this open policy coz it is good to have a non-judgemental and honest society.

Besides the open policy , American work policy is different too. They tend to follow all the rules and regulations where by in my country the efficiency of work is more important. For example I didn’t know that everything has to be schedule wether to go to clinic or to the salon. I am used to the walk in policy in my country. One time I was so sick that I went to see the doc at the clinic, besides the long wait , I have to buy my own medication at pharmacy with the prescription by the doc. In my country I m used to see the doc and get my medication at the same time. Therefore i doubt the efficiency of work here.

When I m down, I got pissed and angry , one time I was about to pack my stuff to return home as I dont think I can understand the American anymore. Lol. Well that was a year ago and now to know I m leaving soon, it break my heart to say goodbye to my beautiful friends here.

So to my friend Jerame , I understand how u struggle to fit into the japan culture .  At this time u just need to stay strong and take this journey as to learn and adapt . Somehow if u have decided to return home, I am happy for u coz’ there is no where in the world is better than home.

~Life is not so bad if you have plenty of luck, a good physique and not too much imagination. ~ lol.

 

Was it a curse or wish? October 1, 2008

 ~ what a mess~

 ~ a self confess shoe fetish~

 

Was it a curse or my wish has been answered?

 

I am so frustrated to pack again. I have been moving a lot since for the past few years . Somehow I feel it was a curse or was it because when I was young I wish to become traveler that god has grant me my wish.

Today was even worst, I broke one of my beautiful necklace while packing . I only wore it once coz’ my dear just got it for me last month . Blame it on my butter fingers.

I notice that most of the stuff I have to pack is my shoes, clothes and books. I dont have much stuff except lots of shoes and clothes. Lots of games too for PS2 that I hardly play, might bring it back to Malaysia to entertain myself when I m bored.

When everything has plan out for my return by November , things get out of the way. I just remember I still have one exam by American Technologist where by I haven’t get the exact date of exam yet. This is going bad as my instructor told me it might take 6-12 weeks to have the exam date. Worst of all xmas is around the corner so my exam date would probably be in next year. I do not think I could wait till next year as I have plan to sort out things out and get everything ready by the end of the yr. However this exam would not affect my graduation so I might consider to skip it and return plus I have to take the another exam back home by Malaysia health dept too. Sometimes I wonder why I have to put myself in all this trouble, I wish I could just b normal and be competent of what I have instead of seeking more and more challenge. Lol . At the same time , I love being challenge and I m always eager to know how far and how much I know. This curiosity mind is like a curse and gift. I have a feeling it will kills me someday. My curiosity mind made me a good student, a good leader but it made me a very relentless person . I have to consistent to challenge myself and there fore I couldn’t live peacefully like other plp.

 

V.I.P in my life’s. September 30, 2008

 ~ my boo ~ charming and metrosexual in his own way~

 

Its almost a year since I brought my ass to the states. I had a kick ass amazing journey, most of all I learn so much throughout this trip. I learn to become a more responsible person and more determine. I have found the missing puzzle that I look for . I hav always doubts of my own capabilities and this trip has enable me to see the true capability of myself. I m no longer hav doubts in what I can do, everything is possible if u try hard enuff . At this moment, I felt serenity and complete. My doubts has been answered. Being far away from home, I am able to be listen to what my hearts tell me rather just listens to whats everyone said. Lol. I am able to make decision based on my perceptions rather than the family perceptions. Basically I feel that I have grown up to be a better person . I gain courage, sympathy, empathy and well American manners. My educations bring me to another level of knowledge and I felt good in a way that I m no longer a fool. Lol. Then again part of me feel incomplete of the education, I wish I could bring it to another level. I am hoping that I could continue to be a radiologist or paramedics at least but I guess time and financial does not allow me to do so .

Most of all I have bring my relationship with Alex to another level . We have better understanding of each others than before. I truly appreciate that he had been with me through good days and bad ass days. He compensate his lack of sportsmanship with his sense of daily surviving intelligence aka dosmetic work. I compensate my lack of daily surviving intelligence with my extensive skills of sportsmanship. He taught me how to cook and I taught him how to swim. We basically complete each other. We even met in a funny way , we basically met at the club or should I say I met most of the important plp in my life’s at the club. Most plp say u always meet bad ass plp at the club but I have proven that u do meet good guys at the club. I had met my soulmate at the club, my best friend, and my god father. Therefore I should say its who u are that determine the kind of plp u meet.  However i guess faith plays a part in it. I was faithed to meet Alex, Sok fun and Fred in my life’s. They play such an important role in my life’s that they inspired me in so many ways.

I have decided to return to Malaysia soon. Therefore, I will blog as much as I could before the end of this trip.  

 

~There is no place in the world like home, dont u agree? ~

Harvest Fest… September 30, 2008

 

This afternoon Alex and I went to the harvest fest at the hill neighborhood. The hill neighborhood is like so call Beverly-hills in little rock. It is where all the huge gigantic house zone. Well its nothing like the little hut place where i m living but i like mine better coz’ this little hut place is surrounded by shopping mart like walmart, target , kohls indeed this is where all the malls area. Anyway once a while , we will go the hill neighborhood for some fancy restaurants. So today , we went to this Greek castle restaurant. So call castle, the foods is just simple Mediterranean foods and i m sorry to say ~to me its too normal probably we have lots of Mediterranean foods in msia. (for Malaysian if u wonder what is Mediterranean foods ?  u know the mamak foods we have like kebab is Mediterranean foods) . For American they find it pretty special , for us its just too normal foods . Then again we had fun at the harvest fest, basically its a fest there , lots foods and art stalls. I love art stalls, i love the knick knacks that they sell but i didn’t buy any coz’ i dont wear too artsy stuff , i m more of the basic girl who wear simple but edgy stuff. They have some belly dancing show there  and its pretty good to see some booty shaking. I kind of enjoy the fair but too bad they dont hav turkey leg. I love turkey leg. I am a meatarian. lol.

~the only time to eat a diet food is when u r waiting for the steak to cook~

 

Autumn.. September 24, 2008

 ~ the place where i soak my feet~

 ~ the cute little apartment where i stay~

 ~the place where i eat and duck watching~

 

Summer is almost over and here comes autumn. Oh, i cant get enuff of summer. The outdoor pool is close and i cant get my tan anymore. So I hit the gym and take a stroll along the lake by my apartment. It is a beautiful day, the weather is breezy and windy. I snap some eye candy pics of the lake and the apartment where i live. I am gonna miss this place. I am starting to pack my stuff to get ready to move to another unit next week and at the same time pack my stuff to florida too . I am so tired of moving and packing, now i kind of realize i can never b traveller coz’ i hate to pack~

p/s: miss my homegirl sok fun, gonna talk to u soon.

Playtime Pizza September 23, 2008

 

Weekend was pretty relaxing. No drunkenness, just chilling out. Guess what , I m getting better , it has been 2 months since the last time I hit the club. Well on last fri nite , after shopping with ecka we went to a New Orleon restaurant, I had my fav seafood gumbo. It was so delicious that I forgotten to snap some pics. Than on Sat, Alex and me went to play time pizza. Its a all u can eat pizza place with some games like laser tag and glow in dark mini golf . Lets just say its more of a family oriented place like Genting Highlands in malaysia except no casino. The deco of the outlet is pretty nice, its very cute and if I were a kid, this would b haven. As a grew up I felt this is more like a day care place. Lol. Did I like it? Nah, I prefer something more xtreme something like jet ski at lake hamilton . Anyway it wasnt that bad coz we had fun.

 

I am so looking forward to Oct coz’ there r gonna b lots of event happen in oct. Its my graduation day , its also halloween, its also state fair and best of all Alex and me plan to go Florida for some sun and fun.

 

Oh yeah did u notice my new edgy hair cut? What ya all think? Its so short and I felt kind of naked.

p/s: Its nice to hear from a good old friend from malaysia, thanks mr lee for being kind and thoughtful all the time. 

Never underestimate yourself.. September 18, 2008

 

~ Florida Tampa Bay, cant wait to see the beautiful sunset there next month.

 

Yesterday I dropped by my college to fill up some paperworks for my graduation. Its hard to believe my journey almost comes to an end. I still remember when I first came to the states, I m lost and I had a hard time trying to understand the local slang. Its almost a year and I think I did pretty well for someone who has a poor command of english. I believe and I hope this would inspire people that never underestimate what u can do in life . I have a poor command of english yet I did pretty well in overall . My graduation will be next month and I m so looking forward for it. I feel I have completed the part of missing puzzle in my life. I always wanted to do a course which is mind challenging and i guess i did it. Though this chapter has comes to an end but to me its just a new begining to something more challenging in future.

Everyone ask me what I plan to do in future , I say I dont know coz I hardly plan for the future as I always do the best today for future. Any possibilities could happen, I might return home for good or I might return to the states again. There r so much of possibilities in life…

 

Life’s full of choices – famously by chivas

Being emotional is good or bad? September 15, 2008

 

 ~ my freaking mermaid moment~

 

I thought being empathy and sympathy in my work is important. I guess I was wrong or mayb I m not suitable for this job. Today I had a 70 yrs old patient . I did not call him in to the procedure room coz’ I consider his age n mobility limitation. So I thought I would wait till the doc is here n then I call him in. Then my colleagues was unhappy with what I did. She said I should have call the patient in asap. I dont understand why I have to let the poor old men wait lying on the bed when the doc is not in yet. I just kept quiet but my mind was thinking maybe I am too emotional for this job. I get mad when patients r mad at me, I cry when patients r very sick, I can b happy and sad at the same. I have too much emotions. Is being emotional is wrong? I should have been a cold hearted bastard and just do my job without thinking much. Someone used to tell me it takes a bitch to b a leader , thats means u gotta b cold hearted , strong n think logically more than emotionally. If it takes that to b a leader , I would rather not be. I cannot hide my emotions and I cant b someone cold hearted (the dolphin tattoo i had constent remind me of being kind and friendly). Maybe I should have to stick to past weird job as mermaid so I dont hav to deal with emotions, just deal with the fishes in the tank. Lol.

Courage, sympathy and empathy. September 9, 2008

 

My job has taught me not much about skill works or lab works. Somehow it taught me about how to deal with emotions . I m more prepare to sympathy and empathy about sick people now than before. I have seen many sick people in a day .Those who touch my heart r those who still stands strong and cheerful despite they r sick. There was this lady she is in her 30’s , beautiful and intellectual but she can’t walk and I guess she had cancer too. I felt sorry for her but she is very cheerful and she doesn’t make it a big deal that she cant walk. The courage that she showed it touched my heart. I guess the skill that I learn most at work is dealing with emotions. Working with sick peole it aint that easy coz’ some r nice yet some r not nice. It involve lots emotions to understand them and i dont really know how to deal with that. It drives me crazy.

Do you have deal with emotions at work? i guess there is always some emotions battle at work either with the plp u work with or the people u have to deal with. sucks right?

 

My father taught me to work; he did not teach me to love it.
~ Abraham Lincoln ~